DUALITY

WARNING: The following words come from a dark place that may invoke deep negativity, discomfort, or further propagate a sense of feeling jaded.

The good news is - everything is equal and opposite. Duality.

“Man, I see in fight club the strongest and smartest men who've ever lived. I see all this potential, and I see squandering. God damn it, an entire generation pumping gas, waiting tables; slaves with white collars. Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. We're the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War's a spiritual war... our Great Depression is our lives. We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we won't. And we're slowly learning that fact. And we're very, very pissed off.”  - Tyler Durden

My eyes crack open - and at first - stung by the rays of light hitting my pupils, triggering my irises call to duty. It’s been seconds, minutes, or perhaps decades that have passed as my vision begins to clear. The intersection of depth, emotion, color, beauty and discomfort.  How long have I been asleep? How long was I there, when did it start, and what have I been doing?

This is my spiritual awakening. It is confusing and painful inside the cage we seem to reside in. This cage is not real, yet fingers poke through the bars at every corner of the circle. Moaning and grunting suggest existence is the opposite of love. It is energetic madness. Blindfolded in rush hour traffic and nauseous from running a rat-racing marathon. Keys to souls sit just beneath noses and some noses are bigger than others. The blindfolds are tied tight, but the pairs of ears remain unobstructed. Sadly, no one is listening. Shallow breathing, flushed scared skin, and emotional paralysis are wrapped around bodies like quilts.

Don’t be inside. Be outside. Listen to what I have to say. I have what you need. I see your wrinkles growing deep - and I have a solution for you - it’ll make your ageless! Want to have a great time with great friends? I have something that never fills you up and never lets you down - go on - drink more - you’ll forget all your worries and your blessings.   Want to be a road racing badass - I’ve got just the toy - and I’m running a special - just for you - but you gotta hurry! SALE, SALE, SALE! Hey - does life have you upside-down? You deserve more. Eat these pills.  They’ll get you straightened out and back into traffic where you belong. Talk to your misguided pill pusher for a free consultation. Can’t get your dick up - here’s a solution. Hungry? Have an orgasm in your mouth with low grade, vibration-killing food, that’ll surely cloud your mind and send you into a vicious cycle of dopamine addiction. It’ll be worth it! ;) Want to make a change in the world - donate to us - we’ll use it for research that cures diseases that we cause. And if you think you have a cure, fuck you. We’ll kill you.

Breathe.

This shit smeared on all four walls. Poison vibrated from the television and radio. Six corporations put out programing on our radios and televisions. Six. Numb you up, make you feel insecure, sell you shit that promises happiness, wholeness, and love. Yet, diseases continue to worsen, depression continues to climax, and our relationships continue to diminish.

Western societies encourage this behavior. As five year old babies we are taught to compare ourselves to our peers through a grading system that does nothing to encourage personal and individual growth. The opposite of love and nourishment.  It’s a creativity killing training. Run them through an assembly line, have them fight fiercely against each other. They’ll scratch, claw, cheat and learn deception so they can get that job that pays them more than their neighbors. Competition! Capitalism! Eat or be eaten! Help is not on the way. Cooperation is a self serving practice. Excessive consumer spending and material collection will become an addiction. And a spirit numbing elixir called alcohol will continue to flow as a management tool. They’ll work - obeying men and women that will threaten to throw their families our on the street if they don’t generate enough profits for them. In exchange, they’ll earn meager wages that’ll push them into corners - helpless and desperate. And when they get sick from a lifetime of abuse, oppression, and pain - we’ll choke the last bits of energy left in them by selling them shit healthcare that will send them to their insignificant graves.

Statistics show that 80% live paycheck to paycheck, enslaving them to their credit cards and mortgages. “Greatest country in the world.” The system is built to condition the people to depend on grocery stores, pharmacies, convenience stores, and oil.  Social media exacerbates the the problem by propagating and encouraging the people to be so distracted from their infinite potential - that depression, anxiety, fear, and insecurity readily propagate. Healing is kept at bay as trauma continues to unfold.  

Our environment is being destroyed at an alarming rate. Governments pollute our oceans, massacre our forests, and saturate the atmosphere poison. Government motto: God bless me and no one else. Western society is sick. Its plague is the promise of wholeness with an agenda to enslave. It fueled by profit and division. It carries no loyalty. It’s not personal, it’s just business.

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The good news is - Newton is right - all forces are equal and opposite.

I wake to the rising light of the sun, setting off the onset of several deep breaths. It feels good to nourish with intention. Thank you for this rest. Thank you for this warm protection and this soft ground. Thank for you waking me up in Your presence. Thank you for waking me up next to her sweet and sleepy smile. Thank you for this roof and for this tribe. Today, I have so many offerings to make. There are blessings to count - so in gratitude I shall serve you. I am at your feet with my surrendering love. Mother earth - your support, your nourishment, and your love is my infinite loyalty. The ripening of hydrating melons during summer months, and the Vitamin C packed citrus fruits during winter months brings clarity in that Pachamama gives us what we need to grow. She is our mother. And with each barefoot step we take on her soil, we are healed.  Free electrons are absorbed through the feet, antioxidants are introduced into the body, and free radicals are neutralized. Can you see? Our obligation is gratitude and care for our caregiver. Father sky - your energy, your encouragement, and your protection is my humble service. The Source of light carries energy and essential benefits for our bodies. Sun gazing has been proven to carry profound benefits through nourishment and growth of our pineal gland and therefore our endocrine system. Our pineal gland is home to dimethyltryptamine and is responsible for regulating our sleep cycling through the production and release of melatonin. How do you feel after a good night’s sleep? How do you feel after poor sleep? How important do you think the health of our pineal gland is? Priorities. Cognitive optimization.  Goal setting and goal slaying.

Nature. I am present. I only hear the sound of a soft stream of water. I only see the orange sky as the  sun sets. I only smell the fragrance of a violet. I only touch the softness of my beloved. And I only feel Mama Ayahuasca in my heart. All that is real is perfect. I am learning.

Listen. Listen as far as you can listen. Then listen as deep as you can listen. Do you hear it? Do you hear the hum of infinity? Can you hear the sound of creation? Just breathe. The air is a gift and our first blessing. Inhale. Inhale deeply. Saturate your body with respiratory food. Exhale in gratitude. CALM. Calm. calm.

As I surrender to truth and as I clear my vision from modern societies rules of fear, I cannot abstain from embodying beauty. My senses are heightened to pure love. I desire wellness for all things. I am soft in my eyes and strong in my arm. There is no confusion. Peace is felt when respect is shared. Do not be confusion. Kindness is not weakness. Fight the power, water the flower. Give and nourish. Take all that you need and nothing more. Be in gratitude. Release that of which does not agree with intuition.  Feel well. Feel deeply. Feel for distance. It is in stillness that Pachamama and Father sky smile. And it is with their smile that you shall smile too.

Oneness.